Being on call doesn't really suit my temperament. I'm not a naturally "spontaneous" person. I dislike disruption. I prefer getting up in the morning and basically knowing what I'm doing that day - so a relatively big thing such as not knowing if I might work all day (or all evening/night, more typically) tends to trigger a strong sense of frustration...
I think it mostly comes down to a sense of not having control. But of course, when I think about it, I know that it's not really the lack of control itself which is the problem - the problem is with the desire to have that control. Attachment. Letting go of that desire, and just going with the flow, would make things much easier....
So today I decided to do just that. Did some basic house chores, a bit of reading, and then headed out for a very long photo walk - in the general direction of work. And right up until 6pm - which is the cutoff until I could theoretically be called in - I was ready to be called in.
It ended up being a pretty epic walk - from 4pm to almost 7pm. A big circle up St Kilda Road, along Southbank and South Wharf, and back home through South Melbourne. Those who know Melbourne know that this doesn't quite need to take three hours - but I spent a lot of time faffing around with my photography.
As for the photography itself - I was mostly just taking things in, not on any particular mission. Must say though - I'm quite impressed with the hand held capabilities of my EM5! Even at as low a shutter speed as 1/5 of a second, quite a few of the night shots turned out pretty clear.
At the end of the day, I didn't get called in to work, and that's totally fine. I get to have a quiet evening in instead!
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